Wild Horses

"Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to."
--Natasha Bedingfield, Wild Horses

My best friend gave me an unexpected update about the boy that I loved but screwed things up with.

She asked me what I thought.

First numb.

But

I'm happy if he's happy.

Even if that means I'm not in the picture anymore.

And I really do mean it.

I mean, it hurts like crazy that I'm still asking what if.
And thinking about what could have been.
Wondering if he felt the same.

But I've made my mistakes.
And I've learned from them.

So yes,

I'm happy if he's happy.

>Tee