Carrie and My Breakthrough

First off, Carrie Underwood is THE GREATEST.

Secondly, I had a massive breakthrough...I think...
The other night as I was riding home, I closed my eyes and I saw his face and started to tear up. And at that moment, I realized that I didn't say proper goodbye to him either (like my old love). But at the same time, I wasn't as upset because I don't like him that way. I think I liked the idea of love more than I liked him. I liked how passionate he was about life, about the dramatic arts. And that he showed me more than I could imagine and how he reminded me of my old love. But I'm not upset, because I know this will not be the last I see of him...
Besides, I'm taking what he's given me and running with it, not wallowing in the past.

"Love goes out, out like a light, out like a flame, and you can't find it anymore. Just when you think it's lost in the rain, it comes back knocking at your door." --Wheel of the World, Carrie Underwood

Love, Tee

Innocence

"...life was an undiscovered river
I was jumpin' in
Head first
It was sink or swim
Do or die
...And now and then
I miss those days
But coming back to this place
I realize, it ain't him I miss
It's that young girl,
wide eyed,
First love,
one time
Innocence
...The one thing I can't get back
Is the one thing I miss
...And it was breaking rules
Flying blind
What you see through younger eyes
It wasn't what I thought it was
Man, I swore he was the one
And now and then
I miss those days
But coming back to this place
I realize, it ain't him I miss
It's that young girl,
wide eyed,
First love,
one time
Innocence..."
--Innocence, Sarah Buxton

<3 Tee

"i need you in a rush"

"Baby run cut a path across the blue skies
Straight in a straight line you can't get here fast enough
Find a truck and fire it up
Lean on the gas and off the clutch
Leave Dallas in the dust
I need you in a rush
So baby run"
-Run, George Strait



[...and he's "what you'd call a dream"...]

if you can hear me, let me know

Wake up, I'm trying to show you
I wanna come clean
you mean more than you should mean
but I'm willing to be

the one that you put on a pedestal
the one that you see in your dreams
the one that you hide your true self from
the one you want to please

and I know that it's wrong to want something
so false and so fake
it's not that I want to fix you
I just want to get my way

cause you're the one that I put on a pedestal
the one who keeps coming back to me
the one that I gave my whole heart to
the one who makes me believe

I want a love that's side by side
I want a love that holds me tight
I want a love that feels like a dream
so when I wake up, he's still there with me

so put me up on a pedestal
give me everything I need
but give it to me so completely
that there will be no more wishing
no more wishing
no more wishing
no more wishing

--No More Wishing By Hayley Taylor

i'm going to miss your cigarettes & bubblegum & beautiful eyes, thank you for everything. you've changed the way i live.

On A Saturday Night (11:27)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gL2Ns4xikWM&feature=channel

Jordan McCoy. Check it out. I love this song so much.

love love Tee