Happy 2009

2008 has been a crazy ride. But it's almost time to ring in the new year and this year's going to be different.

No more needing a man to be happy.
Make an extra effort to be a better person.
Do something good each and every day.

2009 will be another crazy ride.

So to everyone out there, enjoy this ride and I'll blog next year.

{Yeah, I love these 'new year' jokes!}

xox.
<3

Happy Holidays!

Miss Him...

Here's the story in short:
There was a boy who made me fall head over heals for him.
He transferred schools.
Never said goodbye.
He's off happy.
I'm here missing him.
The end.



Out From Under - Britney Spears

Breathe you out
Breathe you in
You keep coming back to tell me
you're the one who could have been
And my eyes see it all so clear
It was long ago and far away but it never disappears
I try to put it in the past
Hold on to myself and don't look back

I don't wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I'm out from under
I don't wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I'll get it all figured out
When I'm out from under

So let me go
Just let me fly away
Let me feel the space between us growing deeper
And much darker every day
Watch me now and I'll be someone new
My heart will be unbroken
It will open up for everyone but you
Even when I cross the line
It's like a lie Ive told a thousand times

I don't wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I'm out from under
I don't wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
Ill get it all figured out
When I'm out from under

And part of me still believes
When you say you're gonna stick around
And part of me still believes
We can find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try
So let's just say goodbye
Forever

I don't wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I'm out from under
I don't wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
Ill get it all figured out
When I'm out from under

I don't wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I'm out from under
I don't wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
Ill get it all figured out
When I'm out from under
When I'm out from under

Great song..Youtube it.

xox.
<3.

Down I Go...

Slowly, yet quickly, my life is headed downhill. The boy I thought I was over still haunts my every move and school is such a burden that I'm starting to become a bad person.

I'm in desperate need of salvation.

I don't know what to do and I am so scared of where this is headed.

On the plus side, Winter Break is coming up in two days so hopefully I will be able to
R
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Ultimate Frisbee. Great sport. Google it.

xox.
<3

Sleep...

mmm...sleep...I wish I had that right now...instead, I'm on break from doing my homework, studying for a parabola quiz tomorrow, and preparing for two presentations tomorrow.

Who said teens don't work hard these days?

Good Actress

Amanda Crew. Google it.

New Room

"All we can do is keep breathing..."

--Great song btw--

So I've found some new four walls to watch my every emotion; good or bad. I figured that since formatting my own website is proving to be too much right now, this quick and easy one will allow me to post more often.
But I think I'm going to leave the old My Four Walls up...I don't think I'm ready to say goodbye to it just yet.

So where am I in my life right now? I think somewhere good.
I got over a boy that I fell really hard for.
And I found someone new to crush over...but I've learned my lesson from the first time. I'm not going to let my crushing ruin a friendship with him and I'm not going to let myself fall so hard over him if he doesn't return the feelings.

I'm doing really well in school; which is something new. Maybe the material is just easier this year or I'm actually improving.

The holidays are coming up and I'm excited. Last year was pretty good. I think my family is actually getting better. We talk more. Love more.
It's strange to think that there's been so many years of secrets and tensions between us. Maybe it's just the fact that we've all grown up so much.

And for once, my world seems to be at peace. And I want to spread that peace around.

Love.Love.Love.
xox
<3