I've always felt others could express my life better than I could...
"baby you're a wrecking ball, crashing into me, nothing I can do but fall, piece by piece, you broke down every part of me that ever thought I'd never need you, baby
it's twisted, messed up, and the more I think about it, it's crazy but so what? I may never understand it, I'm caught up and I'm hanging on, I'm gonna love you even if it's wrong" (Twisted, Carrie Underwood)
"you're toxic I'm slipping under, with a taste of a poison paradise, I'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're toxic? And I love what you do, don't you know that you're TOXIC?" (Toxic, Britney Spears)
Many people get bullied at school and do whatever they can to fit in. Others at home.
What do you do when a house is not a home?
-- Ingrid Michaelson: one great artist. Keep Breathing one of my favourite songs. It's dramatic, it makes me feel. The Way I Am is such a great song. I love the video.
School started...and it's not has bad as I thought it'd be. I hate the courses but love the teachers. Hate the work but love the rewards. Also, I'm pretty active outside of classes so it's not too hard to get up in the morning.
OMG! They replaced my old drama teacher (who was one of the best mentors) with a new drama teacher!! AAHH!!! =( As long as there were good intentions and everything works out fine.
...Chemistry quiz tomorrow!
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p.s. Happy Birthday FLARE MAGAZINE! (I have like three copies of the October issue!)
haha, I love how Alexis Bledel says "Graduation Day!" in her new movie Post Grad.
anywho, I just "graduated" Film Camp!!! YAY! It was SO much fun! I learned so much and got to meet/work with such talented youth and adults! "We're having more trouble with the slating than the scene..." "It's so funny to listen to his snoring for 45 seconds..." "If it ain't dead, shoot it!" I'm ready to step out into the world and show my creativity!
There are about twenty-three hundred other things I could have done today, like clean/pack my room (yes, I'm moving rooms. Into a smaller room I might add... but I get to decorate it the way I want so I'm excited. Maybe I'll post a picture when it's finished.), read my book, finish some videos I've been working on...well you get the idea.
But no. I like to be unproductive. So I slept in AND took a nap today.
And found this nice video:
and Googled: 'jump cut'. [credit wikipedia]: A jump cut is a cut in film editing in which two sequential shots of the same subject are taken from camera positions that vary only slightly. This type of edit causes the subject of the shots to appear to "jump" position in a discontinuous way. For this reason, jump cuts are considered a violation of classical continuity editing, which aims to give the appearance of continuous time and space in the story-world by de-emphasizing editing. Jump cuts, in contrast, draw attention to the constructed nature of the film.[1] Although the term is sometimes used in a loose way, a cut between two different subjects is not a true jump cut, no matter how jarring.
interesting. you learn something new everyday.
maybe my day wasn't as unproductive as i thought. =D
Secondly, I had a massive breakthrough...I think... The other night as I was riding home, I closed my eyes and I saw his face and started to tear up. And at that moment, I realized that I didn't say proper goodbye to him either (like my old love). But at the same time, I wasn't as upset because I don't like him that way. I think I liked the idea of love more than I liked him. I liked how passionate he was about life, about the dramatic arts. And that he showed me more than I could imagine and how he reminded me of my old love. But I'm not upset, because I know this will not be the last I see of him... Besides, I'm taking what he's given me and running with it, not wallowing in the past.
"Love goes out, out like a light, out like a flame, and you can't find it anymore. Just when you think it's lost in the rain, it comes back knocking at your door." --Wheel of the World, Carrie Underwood
"...life was an undiscovered river I was jumpin' in Head first It was sink or swim Do or die ...And now and then I miss those days But coming back to this place I realize, it ain't him I miss It's that young girl, wide eyed, First love, one time Innocence ...The one thing I can't get back Is the one thing I miss ...And it was breaking rules Flying blind What you see through younger eyes It wasn't what I thought it was Man, I swore he was the one And now and then I miss those days But coming back to this place I realize, it ain't him I miss It's that young girl, wide eyed, First love, one time Innocence..." --Innocence, Sarah Buxton
