Graduation Day!

haha, I love how Alexis Bledel says "Graduation Day!" in her new movie Post Grad.

anywho, I just "graduated" Film Camp!!! YAY! It was SO much fun! I learned so much and got to meet/work with such talented youth and adults!
"We're having more trouble with the slating than the scene..."
"It's so funny to listen to his snoring for 45 seconds..."
"If it ain't dead, shoot it!"
I'm ready to step out into the world and show my creativity!

<3
.tee.

Wild Horses

"Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to."
--Natasha Bedingfield, Wild Horses

My best friend gave me an unexpected update about the boy that I loved but screwed things up with.

She asked me what I thought.

First numb.

But

I'm happy if he's happy.

Even if that means I'm not in the picture anymore.

And I really do mean it.

I mean, it hurts like crazy that I'm still asking what if.
And thinking about what could have been.
Wondering if he felt the same.

But I've made my mistakes.
And I've learned from them.

So yes,

I'm happy if he's happy.

>Tee

I'm so unproductive...

There are about twenty-three hundred other things I could have done today, like clean/pack my room (yes, I'm moving rooms. Into a smaller room I might add... but I get to decorate it the way I want so I'm excited. Maybe I'll post a picture when it's finished.), read my book, finish some videos I've been working on...well you get the idea.

But no. I like to be unproductive. So I slept in AND took a nap today.

And found this nice video:



and Googled: 'jump cut'.
[credit wikipedia]: A jump cut is a cut in film editing in which two sequential shots of the same subject are taken from camera positions that vary only slightly. This type of edit causes the subject of the shots to appear to "jump" position in a discontinuous way. For this reason, jump cuts are considered a violation of classical continuity editing, which aims to give the appearance of continuous time and space in the story-world by de-emphasizing editing. Jump cuts, in contrast, draw attention to the constructed nature of the film.^[1] Although the term is sometimes used in a loose way, a cut between two different subjects is not a true jump cut, no matter how jarring.

interesting. you learn something new everyday.

maybe my day wasn't as unproductive as i thought. =D

.tee.

midnight ramble...

the elevator smelt like him.
the warm scent of cigarettes, coffee, mint bubble gum, dove soap.
i guess all actors smell the same?

.tee.

Eh!

Happy Birthday Canada!

Carrie and My Breakthrough

First off, Carrie Underwood is THE GREATEST.

Secondly, I had a massive breakthrough...I think...
The other night as I was riding home, I closed my eyes and I saw his face and started to tear up. And at that moment, I realized that I didn't say proper goodbye to him either (like my old love). But at the same time, I wasn't as upset because I don't like him that way. I think I liked the idea of love more than I liked him. I liked how passionate he was about life, about the dramatic arts. And that he showed me more than I could imagine and how he reminded me of my old love. But I'm not upset, because I know this will not be the last I see of him...
Besides, I'm taking what he's given me and running with it, not wallowing in the past.

"Love goes out, out like a light, out like a flame, and you can't find it anymore. Just when you think it's lost in the rain, it comes back knocking at your door." --Wheel of the World, Carrie Underwood

Love, Tee

Innocence

"...life was an undiscovered river
I was jumpin' in
Head first
It was sink or swim
Do or die
...And now and then
I miss those days
But coming back to this place
I realize, it ain't him I miss
It's that young girl,
wide eyed,
First love,
one time
Innocence
...The one thing I can't get back
Is the one thing I miss
...And it was breaking rules
Flying blind
What you see through younger eyes
It wasn't what I thought it was
Man, I swore he was the one
And now and then
I miss those days
But coming back to this place
I realize, it ain't him I miss
It's that young girl,
wide eyed,
First love,
one time
Innocence..."
--Innocence, Sarah Buxton

<3 Tee

"i need you in a rush"

"Baby run cut a path across the blue skies
Straight in a straight line you can't get here fast enough
Find a truck and fire it up
Lean on the gas and off the clutch
Leave Dallas in the dust
I need you in a rush
So baby run"
-Run, George Strait



[...and he's "what you'd call a dream"...]

if you can hear me, let me know

Wake up, I'm trying to show you
I wanna come clean
you mean more than you should mean
but I'm willing to be

the one that you put on a pedestal
the one that you see in your dreams
the one that you hide your true self from
the one you want to please

and I know that it's wrong to want something
so false and so fake
it's not that I want to fix you
I just want to get my way

cause you're the one that I put on a pedestal
the one who keeps coming back to me
the one that I gave my whole heart to
the one who makes me believe

I want a love that's side by side
I want a love that holds me tight
I want a love that feels like a dream
so when I wake up, he's still there with me

so put me up on a pedestal
give me everything I need
but give it to me so completely
that there will be no more wishing
no more wishing
no more wishing
no more wishing

--No More Wishing By Hayley Taylor

i'm going to miss your cigarettes & bubblegum & beautiful eyes, thank you for everything. you've changed the way i live.

On A Saturday Night (11:27)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gL2Ns4xikWM&feature=channel

Jordan McCoy. Check it out. I love this song so much.

love love Tee